In these long 25 years, i have been a poor man with no penny in my wallet to having almost a bag full of it. I have seen the world millimeters away from me. I have loved and i have lost at the same time. I have dreamt and i have failed. But as i move, i try and make each of my day better than the last one...I strive to become a better person every single day.
Sometimes i am disillusioned by the unanswered questions about this life - where i belong from and where would i reach in this long walk. One thing i have realised is, that it's no worth thinking about it. I have tried a zillion times to define the definite but only with a return of nothing. It's like a blind man trying his best to distinguish darkness out of the light.
See the other side of life now, i made friends and i mean really hardcore friends 30000 Kms away from home. I never thought that there would be a day in my life when i would feel bad to leave people whom i did not know even 4 months back and that i was upset about coming out of India. Now i am sad because i have to go back. I did not know that i would come out of the shadow of being the insecure guy in school to become one of the bold guys of my age. I never thought i could be loved after i lost it once, but now i know that there is a plateful this life has to offer that we never bother to look at. If you are one of those who likes to think about future, then you should know that you are making your present a past without living it. I loved it when one of my best buddies told me that our parents have always struggled and saved their worth to give us a beautiful day, we need to take account of that and enjoy it.
I guess, if one of you share a similar story as this one, Go out there, breathe the fresh year...If you have been a Sudipto then Man If i could do it...You can do it too. Be a self made, always.
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Well said, my friend. I think we have all gone through the motions at some point in life or another. I have discovered I can love even when I felt I had been drained of it and had none left to give. I discovered I still have warmth to share even when I felt dead cold within. And just as life said, "Here, now just chill out, enjoy it, make your money and have a good time with the friends and family that love you," i said, "No, That's not enough" and left it all behind to start from scratch so that I know when I'm lying on my deathbed, that I went out there and followed a dream and did my darndest to make it real.
And here I am, falling in love with my life all over again. The last two months have been, physically and mentally, the hardest I have ever experienced. I have learned a lot about myself, about what I'm capable of and of my fallacies and weaknesses that make me as mortal and vulnerable as anyone else. And I love it. It is a reminder of what life is all about and the wonders and tragedies it can hold for you. It is all about carpe-ing that diem and knowing you tried.
And I turn 30 on monday.
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